Here I am, sitting in front of my computer, preparing to write my next article. Honestly, I can’t Feel it. Today feels more like a sense of blah. When you feel unmotivated, it’s easy to just want this day to pass quickly.

It’s been an intense week. Not physically. I didn’t have to evacuate my house like so many others did because of the fires in California nor did I run into other challenging events in my life.

I just feel like I have been purging and purging old programs, feelings, and beliefs for a long time now, and this week was no different. Well, it actually was. It felt more intense and more unbearable at times, and makes me wonder what on earth I have to write about today?

Self-love? Awakening? Following your heart? Mindfulness?

I can’t find any motivation in my usual blog categories today. They normally fill me with inspiration and flow, so how will I put to paper something I feel inspired by today?

It’s all blah!

Shall I write about feeling blah today? Not that I’m going to create a new category in my blog post, but let’s see how ‘blah’ and feeling unmotivated fits into what I normally feel so inspired by.

When you feel unmotivated, can you love that?

Honestly, no. Right now, there’s nothing about it that I want to wrap my love around. Truthfully, I just want it to go away, so I can get into my flow again.

How can I love this feeling of blah, or awaken to it, follow my heart or be mindful around it?

"Blah" is such a funny word, isn’t it? Let’s look at what the online dictionary says about Blah:

1. Refers to something that is boring or without meaningful content
2. Depression
3. Dull or unexciting
4. Without energy or enthusiasm

Oh, yes, all of it. Ha, no wonder I’m not motivated to write anything today, never mind anything chirpy or inspiring.

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But, self-love and awakening are not all about being chirpy, is it? It’s about being willing and able to be present with whatever arises without resisting it or trying to get rid of it. But, that’s exactly what I want to do: resist it and get rid of it!

Being Mindful With Resistance

When our uncomfortable feelings are surrounded by a layer of resistance, this is really no different from the feelings themselves. Resistance is a feeling too, and in this case, I am willing to make space for my resistance to feeling the blah.

It’s like taking one step back and making space for ‘that too’. In this case, it's resistance.

Sometimes (or shall I say, most of the time), resistance feels like the ‘bad guy’ and rarely gets to be felt or heard in the same way that all the other guys do. I understand the resistance to feeling blah when flow is a much more familiar and preferred state.

However, resistance is actually a big part of your experience when you start moving through layers and layers of old beliefs, feelings, and conditioning. I dedicated a chapter to ‘this guy’ in my book Imagine Being Kind To Yourself and it’s in these moments, like today, that I need to remember that myself.

When I do — when I make space for the resistance — I actually feel a sweet relief inside. The relief is that I don’t have to be any different than who I am at this very moment. I don’t have to love what I want to get rid of when I can’t. I don’t have to love what I don’t love.

That feels like true self-love to me! I can actually love myself even when I feel resistance to it.

Wow, I did it! I’m back in the flow right now, dancing with resistance and willingness to be with what is.

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When you resist your resistance and try to Be what you are not in the moment, it can easily fall under the category of "spiritual bypassing". Knowing myself well, spiritual bypassing is not my "thing", even though it may tempt me at times.

Being Mindful With Blah

Feeling OK with resisting that I don’t want to feel blah in this moment helps me relax. Believe it or not, it actually makes a little more space to feel the feeling of blah now, and believe it or not, I even feel a little inspired now. The closed door is opening and I notice a shift in my energy. I notice a little smile in my heart. 

Suddenly, I have more energy to write about what I don’t want to feel, and the flow is coming back. The flow is always in what is. The flow is never outside of what is.

Remember this when you can’t feel the flow!

I am amazed. I ended up writing this little article, even though I didn’t want to nor felt I had anything to share. The feeling of blah has subsided to a little flow and a little inspiration. I feel pretty good right now and I love myself a little more!

Make Space For What You Resist

I hope this article gives you permission to make space for what you resist, especially the resistance itself. We are so used to being hard on ourselves, push through what doesn’t feel right and compromise or ignore our moment to moment experience.

Resistance is not the culprit. It’s the belief that resistance is the culprit, and in case you need it, you have my full permission to feel any resistance to feeling anything you don’t want.

I am curious to hear from you what happens when you do.

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Pernilla Lillarose is a certified Hakomi Practitioner and a Self-Love Mystic & Mentor. Feel free to browse her website Divine Feminine Flow and if you need support to change old outworn patterns, contact her for a free 30 min Discovery Session.

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